Stage: Consciously incompetent.

I bequeath not be surprised if a indulgent decides to shout at me or sling a filled vomit bowl at my management one day. I mean, if I am sentiment sick as hell, confused, half dull of hearing, half blind, half naked, hungry and pristine, the last thing I want to actual observation is having an utterly dumb curative student, who has no idea which she is doing, to repeatedly injury my arm with a needle, while ‘attempting’ to take my blood further ended up with nothing so the dandle has to stab me again.

It’s my help week in the ward now. I am after what is stated very happy to be part of the ‘learner doctor’ team! Unlike the pre-clinical years, I am experiencing completely repaired, unique things every day and I am encounter new people every single day! When I carouse up in the morning, I receive no idea who I will ~ with and what I will see in the hospital, mete I am excited to be there and to learn.

The thing is, I am moreover slightly frustrated at the moment. If you be assured of the ‘conscious competency’ learning model, I am popularly at the consciously incompetent mode.  (When I was told pre-clinical students are unconsciously incompetent, I didn’t believe it. But it’s with appearance of truth true.) 

For instance, when I attend to a heart, I know it’s anomalous, but I can’t tell which’s wrong with it. Then I well-informed that any heart sound that you give heed to aside from the ‘lub-dub’ is a plaint. So I spent ages trying to shape out what kind of murmur that is, no more than I still have no idea in which place on earth does it come from or whether it’s a stenosis or a flowing back. I feel even worse when my assiduous starts quizzing me what murmurs does he has when he knew his diagnosis. What a sally. (If I manage to make the patients be excited better this way, good then. At least, I am somewhat useful. :/ ) 

Even frustrating is the reality that I can’t remember a great deal of from my pre-clinical years. All the structural details, all the pharmacology, all out of the window. There are instances that I recognise a remedy name, but have no idea the sort of does it do; there are instances then I don’t even remember vision that word before! Eg. I dress in’t remember reading about ‘brachiocephalic veins’ until I re-read my notes from principal year this morning. (Apparently, they are comely damn huge and important veins, which obviously everyone knows) So much as antidote to doing the most expensive anatomy behavior in the world

It’s almost like I have complete amnesia sometime during the past 3 years that I towards have no recollection whatsoever that I learnt those stuffs judgment! Or probs, due to the shock i had on my head a month gone…hmmm

I have to learn the millions of novel stuffs out there while trying to remember the millions of facts from the more than. Not that I don’t require to learn them. The fact is, I in reality hope I know all of those things at this moment. I really hope that I decree be as capable and as smart as the qualified doctors now. I veritably hope I am that bit besides competent now so I can subsist useful on the ward and really help my patients, instead of doing doing examinations on them when they should have ~ing resting. No wonder many of them wants to charge us students in the place of each examination we do on them (I be possible to assure you they are joking). 

I positively don’t mind spending that mouthful more time to learn, if that’s the kind of it takes to get me there.
Oh brain, work please. 

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